It's time to whip out my Gratitude Attitude. I am a very lucky girl and herein I recognize this:
1) I AM THANKFUL FOR BOB. I have an awesome husband. 2009 was a shitball of a year for us. I cried, he worried, I packed up and moved back home. Bob could have easily dumped my ass for that maneuver (I wouldn't have blamed him, either), but he didn't because he loves me and I love him. I am very lucky to be loved in such a way that triumphs over adversity. I LOVE YOU BORPE!
2) I AM THANKFUL FOR IMPROV FOR EVIL. I really love these guys (and gal). I had no idea that a troupe could be this awesome, laid-back, AND supportive, not have a rock-solid turd up their asses AND turn out amazing work, too. I feel honored to get to work with the Evil Ones. They are wonderful friends, balls-out creative, back-having beyond belief, and fucking sexy, too. :)
3) I AM THANKFUL FOR CORTNEY. Cortney has been a really good friend to me, especially since she met me during a really shitty time in my life. She also reads my novel and gives me good feedback. I am lucky to have her.
4) I AM THANKFUL FOR MY MOMMY. She doesn't understand the dream, but she does support it in the form of buying me shoes and groceries. I love you, mommy!
5) I AM THANKFUL FOR THE BEST JULY OF MY LIFE. OH, VSC...summer camp for grown-ups. I came, I ate, I wrote, I swam in a lake, I made friends, I barely slept, I drank cheap rum, I danced, and I went home a better person.
6) I AM THANKFUL FOR HONESTY. It really is the best policy.
7) I AM THANKFUL FOR CHANGE.
8) I AM THANKFUL THAT I GET TO LIVE IN AUSTIN AGAIN.
9) I AM THANKFUL FOR BURRITOS.
10) I AM THANKFUL.
I find myself in a strange place. Strange in that in the past I rarely, if ever, find myself in such a place.
I'm not pining for anything.
Not worrying about anything.
I take one day at a time.
I have a good day. I have a bad day.
I work hard on my novel. I'm not worried about it getting published. It will happen.
I enjoy seeing my friends.
Living apart from Bob, while crappy, has allowed us to (I think) become better friends in a way. Without the day-to-day draggy parts of marriage, we actually have conversations! It's great!
Weather in Austin is gorgeous.
I like looking around at my surroundings and thinking, "fuck yeah!"
Things are really very nice in a quiet, normal, small, but sweet way.
Yay.